KESYUKURAN

Apa yg berlaku, sebenarnya ada sebab. Kalau kita rasa apa yg terjadi kt kita tu pahit sgt utk ditelan, percayalah, tu semua sementara je. Bila kita dh calm, dh bole berfikir, dh keluar dr kebiasaan kita, masa tu la kita rasa sgt2 bersyukur. Allah Maha Bijaksana. Setiap aturanNya, adalah yg terbaik utk setiap hamba2nya.

Itu la sebenarnya apa yg aku rasa sekarang. Sekian lama, dekat2 stahun jugak la menanggung konon2nye kepahitan ni. Tapi bila aku dh keluar dari lingkungan atau lebih tepatnya kepompong aku ni, aku rasa amat2 bersyukur dengan apa yg Allah dh amik dr aku. Sebenarnya Allah x amik apa2 pun, Allah cuma ubah hidup aku jd lebih baik. And, yess! I'm much better now. I become stronger. Allah bagi aku pengalaman supaya aku belajar dr kesilapan. Tak kisah la, kesilapan sendiri ataupun kesilapan orang lain.

Bila hati dh tenang setenang2nya dan minda pon dh bole berfikir, baru la aku tau, apa yg aku sedih2 sgt tu sebenarnya aku xperlu pon dlm hidup aku. Sebab tu lah dlm modul 'Problem Solving', jgn membalas email org yg maki kita dlm keadaan marah. Tunggu smpai tenang dl then br la bls email tu dgn berhemah. Ha.. sbb kita xtau apa consequence lpas 2. Maybe org tu insaf n xkan maki2 lg seumur hidup dia.

Aku just nk sampaikan rasa syukur aku yg tak terhingga kt Maha Pencipta sbb meletakkan aku kt mana aku berada skrg. Mengingatkan aku yg aku berhak mendapat yg terbaik, menemukan aku dgn insan2 yg terbaik di sekeliling aku. Dia sentiasa ada utk mendengar dan memakbulkan doa aku. Seriously, aku xpenah kecewa dlm meminta sesuatu dr Allah. Allah juga menemukan aku dgn seseorang yg aku ingat hanya ada dlm mimpi aku tapi sebenarnya Dia tunjukkan yg org itu sebenarnya wujud. Hmmm.. walaupun mungkin xdpt bersama dia, at least aku tau, aku dh jumpa org mcm tu =)

A HALF DAY OF PLEASURE

Hari ni hanya separuh hari. Bagi hari2 bekerja biasa, separuh hari adalah sgt best. Ye la,blk umah bole tido. Xpon melencong la ke shopping2 mall berdekatan anda. Xpon bole settlekn hal2 yg hanya bole settle weekdays aje spt hal2 bank, pos dsb.. hehe..

Tapi bagi aku, separuh hari utk hari ni adalah sgt xbest. Sebabnya aktiviti hari ni adalah tersangat BEST! Kecewa rasanya bila Zett bgtau yg hr ni adalah half day. Huhuhu... 

Hari ni adalah hari melawat KLIA. Haa.. Bkan stakat melawat departure and arrival hall kt terminal mcm org2 kebanyakkan je taw. Hari ni kami bole access ke tmpat2 yg close to public and ada certain MAHB own staff pon xpnah masuk n xbole access. So, tadi ada visit control room which is all the activities take place at the area of KLIA are monitored there. I mean ALL ACTIVITIES! Gile.. Juling gak la mata kami dlm 2, tgk skrin yg belambak2.. Kt situ ialah the nerve utk KLIA.

Lepas 2, pegi msk kt runway plak. Bukan jln tgh2 runway ye.. Kang kena lenyek plak dgn airbus..huhuhu.. Kami naik bas ikut apron runway tu. Prosedur nk msk mmg ketat r. Kena tinggal ic, amik pas, kena scan bag n badan. Macam nk boarding flight r. Dah masuk runway, terus dibawak ke Airport Fire & Rescue Service. So, kira kt sini mcm balai bomba la. Dorang la yg berfungsi sbg bomba kt sini especially utk aircraft. Tgk dorang punya kenderaan pon, mak aii! Bukannye mcm kete bomba kt luar ni. Kete bomba dorang mmg utk bwk air n foam. Kapasiti = 12000L air. Mmg jakun la sekejap tgk kete dorang 2. Tayar pon bapak besaq. Kete ni mmg fungsi utk padam kebakaran, so, mmg dia la yg padamkn. Manpower hanya utk control button kt dlm. Xde la org2 yg nk pegang paip getah ke ape ke.

Pastu kami pegi kompleks Bunga Raya plak. KOMPLEKS BUNGA RAYA,ok.. Bukan calang2 org bole access. Rasa cam anak2 raja la plak bile masuk situ. Hehehe.. Time ni la sumenye aktif nk bergambar. Ye la, tmpat yg rare cm2,kan? Tiang aje dh besar. Rasa diri ni kecik je bila msk situ.. haha..

Lepas 2, ade la abg bas 2 bwk kami pusing2 sket kt runway. Sronok giler dpt tgk aircraft dr angle yg bkan sume org bole tgk. So, mcm tu la lawatan separuh hari kami. Supposedly the whole day tp guide kami ada hal plak belah petang. Terpaksa la dipendekkan half day. Guide 2 pon ade ckp, byk lg tempat yg dia nk bwk kami pegi..tapi..2 lah..rugi2 =(

Tapi ada lagi sbenarnya bnda yg best berlaku hr ni. Haha.. Aku dh jd the best actress plak hr ni. Bertanyakn sesuatu yg aku mmg dh tau semata2 utk modal nk bercakap dgn dia. Haha.. Mission accomplished! Seriously, I adore that smile. Parking pon sbelah2. Mmg byk sungguh peluang utk ckp dgn dia. Patut la mlm td dia ada dlm mimpi aku.. Ohh, A!

TO TRY OR NOT TO TRY

To try or not to try?

Benda2 ni yg selalu bermain2 kt fikiran aku sekarang. Kata org, tak try, tak tau,kn? Nak try, takut plak. Huhu.. Tapi mana bole takut, kena la berani untuk dapatkan apa yg dihajati. Kalau dapat, Alhamdulillah. Kalau xdapat, xde rezeki la. Usaha, dh usaha dh. Itu br la dinamakan takdir,kan?

Fuhh..susah sungguh kalau xde keyakinan ni. Tapi we are always can develop our confident level. Oh,Allah.. Tolonglah Marni. Dia xde tempat bergantung selain dariMu....

Hari ni, trial xmenjadi. Ada halangan yg menyebabkan aku xde space utk mencuba. Aku xkan give up. I'll try tomorrow. May Allah give me the strength and space.. Aminnnn.....

THE BEST PART

Balik dari kelas, I was so excited to write. Semangat nih..Tapi tiba2 broadband lak wat hal. Asik hijau je. But now, the indicator is blue and I'm clicking the keyboard. Yeay!!

So, today I went to class with the fast heartbeat, with the question, is he'll be here today? Masuk parking, alahaii..kecewanya. His car was not there.. Huhu.. Berjalan la msk kelas dgn kecewa dan laparnya.. Tak nak give up jugak.. Mana la tau dia bwk kete lain, dia ada kut kt dining hall. Letak beg cpat2, tinjau kt dining hall, huhu..frust again. He's not there (senang nmpak dia sbb he's the tallest one!). Huhu.. I was having my breakfast then, frustratedly..hewhewhew..

Today, the last day for the awesome subject, facilitated by an awesome facilitator. Mrs. Azlin with her Customer Service subject. Hilarious xhengat. Sampai sakit perut semalam, ketawa xbrenti2. You roxx, Mrs Azlin! And for this subject too, surprisingly, I'm not that concern for the time break. Tengah2 bersemangat, tiba2 "Ok, it's time for your break. You may continue after this" Haha..rs bangga dgn diri sendiri. Well done, Marni!

Within 2 hours after we started the class this morning, suddenly, someone had entered from the back door. Guess who? It's HIM! Yes, it's absolutely him! YEAY!!! God knows how did I looks like at that time. Senyum smpai telinga,ok..haha.. Before that, Mrs Azlin was separating us to several group. A group contains of 3-4 people. Aiyakk! Not the same group with him la. By the time he entered the class, aku dah ada group dh pon..huhu..

So, the morning session was going well although I was so jealous of looking at him talking to the only girl in his group. Hmm.. Marni, Don't be so ridiculous. Kalau dia xcakap dgn girl tu, camno dia nk buat keje?? Dushh!! Tumbuk diri sendiri for the feeling like that.

The best part is, after we having our lunch break, men go to the mosque for Friday prayer, women just at the class, finishing what have not finished yet, the real story happened..haha..not that big stuff,  but I LOIKE what have been happened..hahaha!!

It was the time after the tea break that his group was going to present their deluxe library project (they were the 2nd group to presenting that afternoon). Inilah group yg aku nanti2kan padahal group aku pon xpresent lagi. It was a time when he was explaining their library building, explaining the stairs and elevator when suddenly I had a strength to just asked him, "It is the spiral stairs,right?" Hey, I'm a civil engineering student, building is always my passion. Heh! And he looked at my eyes then answered, "Ya, it is spiral stairs". I nodded like a jury or something. Actually been amazed by his big brown-colored-contact-lenses eyes. He continued his explanation but this time, he keeps looking towards me as he is explaining the presentation for me. It was for quite 30-40 seconds. I really enjoyed that moment, a direct eye contact with him, when suddenly someone asked him question. Damn it!! 

There goes a story. Haha..best tak?best tak? Korang mmg la tak rasa best tapi klw korang kat tempat aku, korang akan rasai sendiri ke'best'an itu. Rasa macam nk flying without wing pon ada. Sampai dlm solat Asar pon bole rasa macam nk tersenyum lagi. Astaghfirullahalazim... Marni,oii!

I wish there's never a weekend. Tiap2 hari pon rasa mcm nk tgk dia. Hehe... Can't wait for this Monday even though there are no guarantee that he will come but there's still hope,right? Haha.. Adoi la, A.. Don't you know that I'm dying to start a conversation with you? o_O

HARAPAN YG HANCUR BERDERAI..

Alangkah tensionnya..

Bila terpaksa drive 5jam++ membawa brg2 termasuklah sebuah tv di mana tv itu adalah benda plg besar dlm kereta..

Alangkah tensionnya..

Bila terpaksa angkut brg2 sorang2 naik tingkat 2 termasuklah tv tu yg beratnya..MasyaAllah...

Alangkah tensionnya..

Bila sesudah kemas brg2, dgn impian yg tinggi menggunung utk menonton 'Soffiya' dan meng'adjust' arial tv..

Tiba-tiba,

Plug tv PATAH la pulokk!!! Menjadikan tv tu xbole on dan mcm xde harapan nk baik blk...

Arghhh!!!

Aku TENSION!!!!

A HUNK WITH A BEAUTIFUL HEART

Just finished reviewing a blog. A beautiful blog from a beautiful person,at heart.. The person is a HE. He is the one who I can't get off my eyes from. I just first realize the outer part of him, got the look,the height, got degree from US (which I really pray to step my foot on so damn bad,like forever!). I just don't have any idea that his inner part is more beautiful until I found his blog. 

Don't  know what to say 'bout him since we just know each other's name (I hope he didn't forget) for, like, 3 days ago. Unluckily, we're not in the same team. But my table is just next to him. His position make it possible for me to just 'pandang2 jeling2' at him =)

Basically, it's just an 'easy way out' to move on, a way of forgetting the past. What a way can we do to not look back at our ex? Absolutely, just look at another guy. Plus, the guy who ten thousand higher level than your ex. Just look, making an inspirational, motivation for yourself. What the hell? It won't harm you. Plus, it only for a month since he's in finance-number kinda field. We'll be separated to our department soon.

There's something in my mind, what is he doing, without a girlfriend? With the face, the look like that, for God's sake?? I kinda shocked to know that he still searching for the right one. I mean, man, look at you! You've got everything.. Hmm..

It's a different story if it's me. I've got dumped might be of my look ;p 

Sometimes, we think that people who got everything, will got anything as well. But we always forgot that God is fair. Anyone in this world, no matter what position they are, got their own problem. We maybe don't know, people who we think so perfect, is just like us. Even worse. So, just be thankful of what we have. Continue the journey that God has been given to us. Follow the right path.

For the one whose name is A, be strong. You still young, you have a long way to go. Just enjoy your life. We will find what right for us soon. It just not the right time yet. God knows, have a faith on that. The girl who you are waiting for, is there, just wait for the right time for you to meet her. Till then, enjoy and be thankful of what you have. Learn. Gain experience.

And I will always pray for you even you will never know. Pray may God protect you. May God protect you from the bad. People, yeah, bad people.. May God bless you. May God give your strength in your journey to seek for His blessings. Don't forget to pray,darling. 

Handsome guy, please don't change. Your heart is so beautiful. Let it just be the way it is. Be just the way you are..

UNISEL 6TH CONVOCATION; 15,16,17 OCT 2011

Fuhh..fuhhh

Amboi,dh berabuk rupenye blog ni. Huhu.. Agak lama xupdate.

Baru 2 minggu lpas konvo,so I am a fresh graduate! Yeyeah!!

Balik2 konvo, terus demam..adoyaii!! 

Disini bermula segalanya..ehemm2

And this is how it ended..Yippie!!!

With mommy & daddy =)

Yezza!!

Sangat2 lah bersyukur dgn berlangsungnya majlis graduasi ni. Terasa semuanya terbayar. Segala penat lelah, perit jerih, suka,duka, dikhianati..semuanya dh terbayar..

Rasa mcm br je 2 bln lpas aku mendaftar kt dewan besar dgn bersesak n panas teriknye. Rasa mcm br je sbulan stengah lpas aku berjalan, berpeluh2 dr hostel ke fakulti sorang2 (xknal org lg!). Rasa mcm br je rs nk nangis sbb xbole jwb paper final TOS n Soil. Rasa mcm br je main baling2 batu sementara tggu lab PASTRAN bukak. Rasa mcm br je lepak2, minum2, kaut2 maklumat dgn bdak2 kelas kt kg. Rasa mcm semalam, tak tido 2-3 hari, all out utk siapkn tesis.. Huhu..rupa2nya dlm ms 4 tahun benda2 ni semua berlaku.   Semua kenangan ada. Kenangan pahit ke,manis ke,semuanya special kt sini. Frankly speaking, kawan2 kt sini la, kawan2 terbaekk yg penah aku kenal. You roxx,guys!!

Walaupun sem akhir aku agak tercalar dgn perbuatan seseorang (not from Unisel,debu pun x!), tapi I'm so thankful yg aku manage to complete my study dgn pointer yg diharapkan. Maybe bnda2 tu cuma sampah, so effect dia mcm sampah jugak la. Alhamdulillah... It is a beginning utk aku kembali hidup  dalam masyarakat aku sendiri (dh xlarat hidup dgn org PK!)

*Ada org kata aku hipokrit utk dptkn bf dia..haha..dia bcinta dgn sapa agaknye? The guys from SM Nasimuddin legacy ke? Keturunan Syed AlBukhary ke? Hehe..kesiann..tapi xpe la,org 2 xtau citer sbenar2nye. Klw dia tau,mesti malu,rs mcm xmau idup lg..hehehe..Aku menumpang kasih kunun..adehh..Rasa cam nk pengsan je..Dh la,ye la..korang mmg sekufu..bole kawen..bole kawen..